Still Here Waiting

How Long oh Lord will I be left here..
So unfull filled
Dying away..whithering away
My selfishness filling everyday

How Long will I be left here
All on my own.. childless and barron
a deslote waste land filled with only emptyness
I tried to be filled with Joy I tried to be filled with Laughter
But really and truly I am only filled with nothingness

You tell me you are here.. never leaving, never forsaking.
But All I experience is an empty emptyness
I tried to connect, I tried to believe.. But you fill me with is a lonley silence..

I can only say thank you for you know what I need
I only have Joy and my cup is only full, when It is me and you.. yet you make me to be around so many bodies so many faces but I am still alone alone alone

How Long will I wait for the Joy to come again, How Long will I wait also to feel I have a home..
But If this is what you want from me I will not complain.. If you want me have a long face. I will gladly oblige.. I have tried to please I have tried to Love.. I am full of hardness, lonleyness, and empty empty emptyness.

I still take Joy in sing your praises.. I take Joy in Worshipping you..Because you are all I Truly Have, You are all I turly have..No one else to talk too..No one to cry to No one else to Pray to No one else to Bless.