This Isn't Me

Ive been living a lie
I never even realized
thought I had felt pain
I made it all up
To hide who I really am
Now I have to try and bring it all back again

This isnt me
Im not the person I appear to be
I fooled myself
others could see right through me
I shattered my innocence
trying to be significant
I wasted my childhood
trying to skip it

Wanting to turn back time
Or would I be satisfied
I want to be who i was back then
bring back who I really am
Id like to apologize
For all the pain I caused
Searching for answers
When they were there all along

This isnt me
Im not the person I appear to be
I fooled myself
others could see right through me
I shattered my innocence
trying to be significant
I wasted my childhood
trying to skip it

Made myself suffer
always blaming others
Now Im numb inside
Theres nothing to hide
I dont know if Im happy or sad
coming to reality
I want to carry on my message
Dont take anything for granted